The price of success is much lower than the price of failure.
Zig Ziglar

This week has been a little less than I'd hoped for. I weighed in at 249 today which is 1 lb less than what I weighed in last week (but didn't blog about). I'm slowly working on my diet and pairing Slim Fast shakes with my E-Mealz dinners. All the grazing in between is what's holding me back though. I just want to say that I really rocked it this week when it comes to drinking my water! Yay for something at least :D

I bought Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred and I just want to say WOWZA! I can't even do a jumping jack. Most women complain about not enough bra support and I have a problem with no support for my tummy roll. Not to mention I can't do a pushup except against the wall. And my 5lb weights are really too heavy for me... and I can only do half the reps required. As with anything though practice makes perfect so I'll keep at it until I can at least make it to the end of the video.

Oh well it's late and time for bed but I just wanted you to know I'm still here.

Complaining will not change things in your life; only action will. Make a list of all you need to do to change what doesn't work in your life and, little by little, begin making those changes.
-Susan Jeffers

Whew what a relief the scale was this morning in a good/bad way. I thankfully lost 5 lbs by 8:30 this morning. It's still a 2 lb gain from my last weigh in on the 24th of June. I'm really glad I got on the scale yesterday. It really was the fright I needed to push me up off the couch.

I'm so tired of being this unhealthy. For almost 2 weeks I've had burning in my stomach and I'm sure it's from all the chili I eat. Plus I just got back from a week in Utah visiting family and eating more than a fair share of fatty foods. I was just waking up feeling so nauseous that I wouldn't even drink my morning coffee until later on after I had breakfast and my stomach settled a little. I was even started to wonder if it was morning sickness and went out and bought a pregnancy test (which came out negative).

I'm also tired of cropping all my photos to get the most flattering photo. I totally cropped myself in this photo to avoid showing the full width of my upper arms or my tummy rolls. I really hate getting my picture taken by a camera that isn't my own. This way I can crop it before it's downloaded.

So this morning I got up and was motivated. I started off with weighing in and my honey jumped on the scale as well. (Yay for the spousal support!) We made oatmeal with bananas for breakfast. I let that settle and built up the motivation and got on the wii and did a 6 minute workout on Gold's Gym Cardio Boxing. It kicked my butt for just that little of time. It said that I burned 72 calories and did 311 punch count.

My thighs are extremely sore now from the squating so I'll definately have to mix it up and try something different tomorrow. I can hardly wait!

34 Days Until My 31st

... and I've gained weight! It's been 46 days since my last weigh in and even longer since I've blogged about it. Today I got the motivation to get up off the couch and at least weigh in. I weighed in at 246.5 lbs on June 24th around 9:30 am. Today I'm weighing in at almost 4 pm and the scale says 253.5 lbs. :'(

Please oh please let that just be from my breakfast and lunch today. I had french toast with butter, syrup and bananas; bacon and sausage links; 2 over-easy eggs; and 2 cups of coffee with sugar and hazelnut creamer. Lunch was a plate the neighbor brought over consisting of some chunks of beef in a chili sauce with beans and rice.

The scale has offically scared me straight. I've been on vacation this past week in Utah visiting familly and I've had this consistant feeling of my stomach burning and I've been telling myself that now is the time to eat better. I've just found the place in my mind where I'm ready to give it another shot...

So I'll see you tomorrow after I weigh in first thing tomorrow. As for tonight I'm going to order my E-Mealz and maybe do some grocery shopping to prepare.

**Day 64** Weigh In

I've been determined this week that the scale was finally going to start giving me good numbers again. I've dropped down to 243.2 lbs two weeks ago and quickly gained 5 lbs back. I wanted those numbers again. I was so happy! My honey was proud of me. And he offered to give me $300 if I lose 20 lbs. I was only 12 lbs away from that goal then.

Today I am proud to say that I lost -3.5 lbs for a total of 244.5. Yay me! I'm so happy! I just feel bad that it is a weight loss of little excercise but I did watch what I was eating. My honey has been staying with his family for a few weeks now and I think that has helped a lot with my diet. It's sad to say but without him I really have to think about my food. Before I could just tell him what I wanted for dinner and he'd make it. My honey is a big muscular man and he does like to snack a lot too. Everytime he'd make a snack I'd want one for myself. Well now with him gone... I only eat my healthy snacks and really have to think about dinner since I'm cooking it myself. I hate cooking too so I only eat when I'm really hungry. No more eating just because.

Yay!!!!! I'm just SO happy!!

**Day 15** Weigh In

I'm so happy today!! I was really worried about that McDouble yesterday but I still lost .9 for a total of 2.8 lbs this week!!! I'm down to 246.5 lbs. In 2 weeks that is 4.6 lbs. I'm really close to the 5 lb goal every 2 weeks that I had set up on my wii fit.

I haven't done much today except the wii fit. I'm was too excited to get on the computer to start anything else but my sister did a Yoga video on Netflix that I really want to try today. Plus I have my new Gold's Gym game to learn.

I've got 300 swagbucks that I need to earn before I can get my next game. I think I'm going to get the Your Shape  game. Right now it's only $14 on Amazon.

**Day 8** Weigh In

This mornings weigh in was not as bad as I'd been anticipating. I weighed in at 249.3 lbs. which gives me a weight loss of 1.8 lbs for the week. I was so happy! I put my honey on the scale and he gained 4 pounds since we got the wii for Christmas. LOL He's been in a bad mood since.
My workout today with Wii Fit:

• Calories Burned- 199
• Soccer Heading- 114 pts
• Basic Step- 263 pts
• Perfect 10- 00:49.40, 00:48.98, 00:45.30, 00:58.40
• Hula Hoop- 320 spins
• Rhythm Boxing Adv.- 591 pts
• Rhythm Parade- 485 pts, 501 pts
•    Advanced- 1222 pts
• Island Cycling- 1.050 miles